Time and tide waits for no man. Nope, not even me.
sigh.. right now i’m so bored so i decided to blog. wanted to title this post as ‘bored’ but looks like many beat me to it d.. wanted to title this ‘on holidays’ but still i’m two steps behind..
see, i just lost my friend coz she decided like in 5 mins-it seemed like that to me at least- to leave form 6 and study business in col. ok, this is not just some friend, this was the friend that i spent most of my secondary school yrs together. working together, studying together, seeing teacher together, going onstage together, scolding prefects behind their backs together ( i still do), going on trips together, took exams together, must have cried together, etc, etc.. lots,k? not easy not seeing her in school anymore. the day after she announced, me and kw were crying, but i was worst than her la.. couldn’t stop myself..
i appreciated every moment i spent with her.. ppl say i don’t zhen xi enough what i have just because i don’t spend lots of time doing something, but in fact, i do appreciate everything i have.. i love my friends, i love my new school, i loved my old school, i love my church, i love my cell girls very much- they bring me so much joy.. but time really passes so i guess we all have to choose what kind of life we want to leave behind.
some ppl live lives for themselves. these people will definitely make friends but without intentions of keeping them. its just to fulfill their need of companionship at that particular moment. i’ve had friends like that. they are very nice to you when they are with you.. i’ve even thought one of them at one time to be my confidante.. there was this once i knew this girl, we were really tight for a period of time. went shopping together, shared boyfriend secrets with each other, but once we had to go separate ways, she didn’t even want to chat with me online..so sad right? felt sad for a while, felt a bit cheated coz i gave her part of my emotions.. but life’s like that.. not everyone is that sincere..
then there’s the other kind who uses u. they make friends with you because you have some sort of connection to someone. i’m grateful i haven’t come across such people.. hopefully i won’t..
and then there’s xb. and kw.our story is really amazing but all true. i’ve been close to xb for quite long. then kw came into the pic. we had this mutual resentment for each other. didnt’ really like her partly coz of the rumours that were going around. (rumours are bad) we went on like this for about 2 yrs. and then one day, we just clicked. i think it was in the absence of xb. to cut the long story short, we became really good, trusted friends. looking back, i think that time when there were misunderstandings going on was really important. it was sort of like a preparation for today when xb is not around anymore.. if it weren’t for then, both kw and myself would really be without close friends in class.. so u see, God works in wonderful ways.. he knew that one day one of us would go so he sent someone else.. not bad, eh?
xb, kw, and myself, we actually belong to a bigger group of circle. all of them wonderful friends.. these are people u can trust. no matter where they go, they still come back. 7 of us, three still in form 6, 2 in inti, 1 in HELP and 1 in Lagenda. but then we’re still as close as before. these are the sincere people. all of us have taken different paths, made new friends but then we still cling on to each other.. we still meet frequently.. friends like these are hard to come by, so the best thing is to cling on to them. but then again, don’t hold on too tightly or they will be the thing that hinders us from achieving something better.. friends like these i’m sure will always be supportive of me in whatever i do.. they want what’s best for me.. c? that’s y they’re so great..
other than these charming loyal friends, i blessed with this other best friend that i miss really much right now coz she’s in genting while i’m getting really bored here.. she’s the best. now this is an even rarer find.. how many people will travel and extra 5.8km to fetch u home? or talk to u on the phone after midnight because u are facing temporary hormone imbalance and experiencing short term insanity? we were never in the same class cept during 1 yr in tadika..not in the same church, don’t live nearby but then we still are such good friends.. going to miss her LOTS when she goes..hmm..
ok. i’m this really loyal person who holds on real tight to friends.. i find it very hard to adapt to changes esp in the friendship department.. so yeah, i appreciate and love all my friends.. i’m truly blessed.. i’m still very young, i’m sure that along the way i’ll meet worst ‘friends’ than i ever did, but then again, i know that i’ll get wiser in the friend-choosing skill.. i’ll mature.. hope my reader does though..
vivienne, out.
